So....

I say a lot of things I don't really mean. I try so hard to be genuine, but I suck at it (the suck factor is not only in my church - it's also in my life). Here's an (one of the many) example.

I talk all the time about showing grace, forgiveness, mercy, love, acceptance, and some more grace for the fun of it . I talk about grace all the time. I say some radical things - I say that I would let a murderer, gay, or rapist teach my kids Sunday school class. I talk a lot about grace. There's a kid who works with my youth group. (I said some very UN-graceful things) (Suffice it to say that he sinned - majorly) I can't show him grace. It kills me to see him around the girls in youth group. It makes me angry that he is allowed to be a student still. If he was gay he wouldn't be allowed to stay - but his major sexual mistake is easily forgiven. Even written off. It makes me angry.

I talk about grace more than primetime TV ... but when it comes right down to it - I can't live it. I suck at this whole grace thing.